The Date is Set…

For my next visit the my GP to check my weight and all of a sudden I’m nervous.

Every time I have tried to lose weight in the past I have struggled to see more than 1 lb lost in a week. When I see a pound of weight loss I find myself in this weird YAY but nay kind of place. I’m YAY because it’s a pound of weight lost, it’s what’s recommended and it should be easier to sustain losing at this rate … great! but then I’m nay because other people seem to have the weight drip from their bodies by doing the same kind of thing as me, so I get a little frustrated as to why I don’t ever see larger numbers like everyone else.

The thing that always annoys me though, is that in the past I have never seemed to be able to keep this sustainable 1 lb weight loss going. I tend to lose 1, gain a little, lose a little more, plateau, gain, lose etc. Now, I know that this has a lot to do with how I handle myself – I never really liked to exercise and my dedication was never at 100% but even when I did eat cleanly for a week, the scales would never seem to tick over in my favour. Eventually I/we got fed up and decided to chuck it in the fuck it bucket along with a large greasy pizza and a tub of ice cream … and the wheels of the wagon would fall right off.

This time however, I am counting every calorie and I’m working out at a gym. I’m really trying hard and I’m proud of myself but now the doubt sets in. I have six weeks to lose 9 lbs for the Dr. That gives me a loss of 1.5lbs a week – manageable right? But I have never been able to lose that number consistently, so now I’m worried that I won’t manage it and then on my appointment day he will just look at me, shake his head and tut. The worst thing about it is that we have a week-long holiday and our wedding anniversary between now and then – times when I know that I’m not going to be as good as I should be and that’s also a week without the gym!

When I weighed in this morning I found a loss of 0.2 lbs so that’s another little loss to add-on … YAY! but then I looked at it again and wondered if it was enough. Then I got angry at myself for even thinking that – I’m working hard and doing what I can so yes it’s enough! I need to get out of my head!

I can do this!

Right, I’m off to the gym.

Have a good one,

Deb x

I’ll Miss My Cuddles

Today, well yesterday now, was one of the days that I volunteer at my daughters school. I go in for a couple of hours to listen to, and to help with the kids reading, and I love it! Some of the kids that I’ve been reading with melt my heart and today one little boy came and gave me a huge cuddle – he’s such a sweetie and I’ll miss him if I don’t follow his class up next year.

We also got a menu plan from school today for school dinners so me and the mini-me sat down when we got home to go over her options. She’s a fussy eater at times but I think I’d really like her to have school dinners as she will get variety in what she eats and something warm in her tummy. I have to admit that when I saw the butterscotch tart pudding listed I actually had myself a Ratatouille moment – you know the flashback to when you were a kid! Urrrghhhhh that stuff used to be my favourite thing to eat from school and I’ve never found a recipe that comes close! If you’re reading this and know of a great recipe for this then please let me know!

Anywho, other than that, today has been a pretty sedate one so I don’t have much to say other than I weighed in again this morning to find another 0.6 lbs had disappeared. I’m pleased with how this seems to be going but I’m still expecting a punch to the tit by gaining some/a bit/a lot/ all of it back over the weekend. Time will tell I guess.

Well it’s late so I’m off to bed!

Have a good one,

Deb x

 

A Burning Question…

Today I remembered to charge my Fitbit and wear it to the gym but now I’m confused. During my workout I noticed that the number of calories that I’d burned on the machines read differently to what my Fitbit said that I’d burned and now I don’t know what to think.

The gym equipment that I’d used when I was checking this out showed that I’d burned 592 calories, at the same point the Fitbit showed 869 calories burned. That’s a difference of 277 calories!

So which is going to be the closest to the actual number I’d burned? Do I go off of the lower number to avoid disappointment, or do I go by the higher number and think of myself as much more of a kick arse workerouterererer? I know which number I want to believe that I’d achieved as by the end of our session I was dragging my arse tired, but I just don’t know!

Also, which arsehole decides to build a gym where the folks that use it have to walk up two flights of stairs to get out after they have had a knackering session? That’s just cruel, and in my case, insanely dangerous! I have shocking balance at the best of times but after an hour and a half of exercise focused mainly around legs I’m an accident waiting to happen.

Anyways, I meant to get some “before” pictures up on Monday but forgot to get them taken so we made up for it today. I hate that I’m posting these as I’m really not a fan of myself but I’ve decided that putting my starting point out for the world to see is a good thing as I now have to work my arse off to show some much improved “after” pictures. Please ignore the state of me!

Finally, this morning’s weigh in showed a further loss of 0.8 lbs. I’m shocked that there has been another loss on the scales but at the same time I’m still waiting for it to even itself out by the end of the week. I’m hoping that it doesn’t though – I don’t think I’ve ever worked this hard before so it would be nice to be rewarded well for my efforts.

See you later tater,

Deb x

The Best Way to Weigh?

I’ve seen people handle weighing-in in a few of different ways. Some people seem to only weigh weekly, some seem to have a routine where they will only weigh in at groups meetings for their slimming groups and others seem to weigh-in daily.

So, how should I weigh in? I don’t like the idea of slimming groups as I’m not a fan of the idea of weighing-in in front of people face to face. I’m actually incredibly shy and awkward around people who I don’t know (and even those that I do!) and I’m also not keen on spending membership fees on something like that as I am currently a stay at home mum and hate the idea of my hubby paying for something like that for me, even though I know that he gladly would.

That leaves me with weekly and daily weigh-in’s.

I like the idea of weekly as I guess that I don’t feel as pressured during the week but then at the same time daily appeals to me as I can see how each day has affected me and my weight, and I can see where I go wrong or do better.

So is there a correct way to weigh? What do you do?

I’m currently going with the daily until I’m told to do differently I guess, and today I weighed in at 233.4 lbs which gave me a loss of 2.8 lbs from yesterday. I find this to be an amazing number as I’ve not normally lost that much in a week when I have dieted in the past. I’m not expecting that number to really increase over the week but I’m dreading it going down. I really want the work that I put in to show so that I can feel excited about my progress and want to keep at it.

I know that it’s my food choices and portion sizes that have gotten me to where I am right now and because of it I’m feeling hungry. I’ve gone from a whopping plate of food to a measured and portioned out meal but I’m also finding that, even though I’m calorie counting, I’m able to have the odd treat and still come in under my calorie allowance. I know that some people will think that I should just cut all of the crap from my diet or that I should only drink kale and spinach smoothies, but I know for a fact that if I don’t allow myself the little treats here and there (today it was two Oreo biscuits and a piece of toffee) that I will fall off of the wagon before it’s even really started rolling.

Well I guess that’s all I have to say for now, I’m looking forward to seeing where these changes take me.

Until next time,

Deb

 

And So It Begins

Last night I sat and tried to figure out our eating plan for the week and this morning I made myself a calorie counting spreadsheet so that I can track what I eat and hopefully see if and where I fall down along the way. I’ve also visited the NHS BMI calculator to check out where I sit and what they recommend with regards to calorie intake.

It turns out that I’m obese (no surprise there!) and that I have a BMI of 36.4. They recommend that, in order for me to lose a safe and sustainable 1-2 lbs a week, that I am to aim for a consumption of 1948 – 2504 calories per day, which is higher than I expected. I also weighed myself this morning to find that I tipped the scales at 236.2 lbs which gives me a total target of weight loss of 96.2 lbs so I’ve got quite the way to go!

Today I also went to the gym with my mum whist the munchkin was at nursery where we I did 10 minutes at level 7 on the treadmill at a brisk walking pace on the random setting that threw in some hills, 10 minutes on the cross trainer doing the aerobic routine, 20 minutes on the recumbent bike (I find this more comfortable as I suffer with a slipped disc) at level 11 on the random setting that also threw in some inclines, 20 minutes on the cross trainer at level 7 on the aerobic program again which incorporates pushing and pulling with arms, sprinting, legs only and going in reverse and 10 minutes on the rowing machine with a resistance level of 6.

Now I don’t know if this is the best way for us to exercise as we are limited on time and we have no clue as to what makes for a good workout but I’m currently of the thinking that doing something is better than nothing and this is waaaaaay more than I’d do if I were just sat at home. That being said, I’m always open to advice so awesome reader, do you have any tips for me?

I also figured that some starting pictures might be a good idea so that I can look back over time and compare myself to where I began. I was going to do that today but totally forgot to get snap happy so this will hopefully happen on Wednesday when I’m back at the gym.

Food today was a Beef Pho Naked Noodle pot for lunch at 267 calories, a Pink Lady apple for a snack and a chicken curry for dinner that came in at a walloping 947 calories. I didn’t realise just how calorie dense that meal was but one thing I’ve not wanted to do with this calorie counting/better eating plan is to make my hubby suffer through eating foods that he doesn’t enjoy. The way I’m looking at it is that we all enjoy a curry in our house and even though I could have saved a ton of calories by not eating this, I’ve counted each calorie that it contains and worked it into my daily allowance. I’m full, satisfied and feeling good today.

I just hope that eating things like this doesn’t end up kicking me in the arse when it comes to my weigh in next week! I’ve always been on the larger side and have struggled to lose weight in the past, some people have said that could be affected by my Hypothyroidism but a doctor has never confirmed that for me so right now I’m blaming poor portion control, too many take outs and snacks. Hopefully monitoring what I eat will help me get myself to where I need and want myself to be. I guess we will see on Monday…

Until next time folks…

Deb x