I’ll Miss My Cuddles

Today, well yesterday now, was one of the days that I volunteer at my daughters school. I go in for a couple of hours to listen to, and to help with the kids reading, and I love it! Some of the kids that I’ve been reading with melt my heart and today one little boy came and gave me a huge cuddle – he’s such a sweetie and I’ll miss him if I don’t follow his class up next year.

We also got a menu plan from school today for school dinners so me and the mini-me sat down when we got home to go over her options. She’s a fussy eater at times but I think I’d really like her to have school dinners as she will get variety in what she eats and something warm in her tummy. I have to admit that when I saw the butterscotch tart pudding listed I actually had myself a Ratatouille moment – you know the flashback to when you were a kid! Urrrghhhhh that stuff used to be my favourite thing to eat from school and I’ve never found a recipe that comes close! If you’re reading this and know of a great recipe for this then please let me know!

Anywho, other than that, today has been a pretty sedate one so I don’t have much to say other than I weighed in again this morning to find another 0.6 lbs had disappeared. I’m pleased with how this seems to be going but I’m still expecting a punch to the tit by gaining some/a bit/a lot/ all of it back over the weekend. Time will tell I guess.

Well it’s late so I’m off to bed!

Have a good one,

Deb x

 

A Burning Question…

Today I remembered to charge my Fitbit and wear it to the gym but now I’m confused. During my workout I noticed that the number of calories that I’d burned on the machines read differently to what my Fitbit said that I’d burned and now I don’t know what to think.

The gym equipment that I’d used when I was checking this out showed that I’d burned 592 calories, at the same point the Fitbit showed 869 calories burned. That’s a difference of 277 calories!

So which is going to be the closest to the actual number I’d burned? Do I go off of the lower number to avoid disappointment, or do I go by the higher number and think of myself as much more of a kick arse workerouterererer? I know which number I want to believe that I’d achieved as by the end of our session I was dragging my arse tired, but I just don’t know!

Also, which arsehole decides to build a gym where the folks that use it have to walk up two flights of stairs to get out after they have had a knackering session? That’s just cruel, and in my case, insanely dangerous! I have shocking balance at the best of times but after an hour and a half of exercise focused mainly around legs I’m an accident waiting to happen.

Anyways, I meant to get some “before” pictures up on Monday but forgot to get them taken so we made up for it today. I hate that I’m posting these as I’m really not a fan of myself but I’ve decided that putting my starting point out for the world to see is a good thing as I now have to work my arse off to show some much improved “after” pictures. Please ignore the state of me!

Finally, this morning’s weigh in showed a further loss of 0.8 lbs. I’m shocked that there has been another loss on the scales but at the same time I’m still waiting for it to even itself out by the end of the week. I’m hoping that it doesn’t though – I don’t think I’ve ever worked this hard before so it would be nice to be rewarded well for my efforts.

See you later tater,

Deb x

The Best Way to Weigh?

I’ve seen people handle weighing-in in a few of different ways. Some people seem to only weigh weekly, some seem to have a routine where they will only weigh in at groups meetings for their slimming groups and others seem to weigh-in daily.

So, how should I weigh in? I don’t like the idea of slimming groups as I’m not a fan of the idea of weighing-in in front of people face to face. I’m actually incredibly shy and awkward around people who I don’t know (and even those that I do!) and I’m also not keen on spending membership fees on something like that as I am currently a stay at home mum and hate the idea of my hubby paying for something like that for me, even though I know that he gladly would.

That leaves me with weekly and daily weigh-in’s.

I like the idea of weekly as I guess that I don’t feel as pressured during the week but then at the same time daily appeals to me as I can see how each day has affected me and my weight, and I can see where I go wrong or do better.

So is there a correct way to weigh? What do you do?

I’m currently going with the daily until I’m told to do differently I guess, and today I weighed in at 233.4 lbs which gave me a loss of 2.8 lbs from yesterday. I find this to be an amazing number as I’ve not normally lost that much in a week when I have dieted in the past. I’m not expecting that number to really increase over the week but I’m dreading it going down. I really want the work that I put in to show so that I can feel excited about my progress and want to keep at it.

I know that it’s my food choices and portion sizes that have gotten me to where I am right now and because of it I’m feeling hungry. I’ve gone from a whopping plate of food to a measured and portioned out meal but I’m also finding that, even though I’m calorie counting, I’m able to have the odd treat and still come in under my calorie allowance. I know that some people will think that I should just cut all of the crap from my diet or that I should only drink kale and spinach smoothies, but I know for a fact that if I don’t allow myself the little treats here and there (today it was two Oreo biscuits and a piece of toffee) that I will fall off of the wagon before it’s even really started rolling.

Well I guess that’s all I have to say for now, I’m looking forward to seeing where these changes take me.

Until next time,

Deb

 

She’s Growing Up

Today is the day that my daughter went up into her reception class from the school nursery for a trial and to meet her teacher for the new school year. To say she was excited is the understatement of the year, especially now that we have found out that her current teacher is moving up with her – she giggled so hard with excitement and then she started to cry with happiness. She adores her teacher (as do I) and the fact that she is going to be with her next year seems to have made this transitional day much easier on her … and me!

So when her time at school was up for the day we decided to head into town to grab some thank you cards for her teacher, the other group teachers and the teaching assistants in her classroom as she seems to do activities with all of them. I also bought a box of chocolates for each of them and made a paper cut for her lead teacher.

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My hubby tells me that I’m a bit of a “try hard” when it comes to things like this but the way I see it is that my daughter has come along so much whilst being in this class and I really feel that the teachers deserve to know how much I appreciate what they do for her, and how much she appreciates them too.

We also received a school report and I was so proud. It turns out that she is doing very well in class herself, but that she also helps her peers when they struggle. I have tried to drill into her how important kindness and friendship are, and as of right now, it seems to be paying off. Long may it continue!

She came home at the end of the day with a plan on how we are going to integrate full days at school into her life in September as they say it can be a bit of a shock for the kids. I guess that is quite a massive change to go straight into having a full day at school from only being there for three hours a day previously. I have a feeling that my daughter will be fine being a school for the extended time as she loves it there but I’m glad that they don’t just chuck them in the deep end.

We also have a diary to fill in with reports and pictures of all of the things we get up to over the summer holidays so that the kids can talk about it all when they go back to school – you’d think that she was given a brick of gold with how she reacted when she saw it! She’s already begging to fill it in with doodles and things and the holidays don’t even start for another couple of weeks. I was already planning on doing things with her over the holiday but now I feel like have to try to find as many things to do with her as I can – at least we will be having lots of fun together … I can’t wait!

Thanks for reading,

Deb

And So It Begins

Last night I sat and tried to figure out our eating plan for the week and this morning I made myself a calorie counting spreadsheet so that I can track what I eat and hopefully see if and where I fall down along the way. I’ve also visited the NHS BMI calculator to check out where I sit and what they recommend with regards to calorie intake.

It turns out that I’m obese (no surprise there!) and that I have a BMI of 36.4. They recommend that, in order for me to lose a safe and sustainable 1-2 lbs a week, that I am to aim for a consumption of 1948 – 2504 calories per day, which is higher than I expected. I also weighed myself this morning to find that I tipped the scales at 236.2 lbs which gives me a total target of weight loss of 96.2 lbs so I’ve got quite the way to go!

Today I also went to the gym with my mum whist the munchkin was at nursery where we I did 10 minutes at level 7 on the treadmill at a brisk walking pace on the random setting that threw in some hills, 10 minutes on the cross trainer doing the aerobic routine, 20 minutes on the recumbent bike (I find this more comfortable as I suffer with a slipped disc) at level 11 on the random setting that also threw in some inclines, 20 minutes on the cross trainer at level 7 on the aerobic program again which incorporates pushing and pulling with arms, sprinting, legs only and going in reverse and 10 minutes on the rowing machine with a resistance level of 6.

Now I don’t know if this is the best way for us to exercise as we are limited on time and we have no clue as to what makes for a good workout but I’m currently of the thinking that doing something is better than nothing and this is waaaaaay more than I’d do if I were just sat at home. That being said, I’m always open to advice so awesome reader, do you have any tips for me?

I also figured that some starting pictures might be a good idea so that I can look back over time and compare myself to where I began. I was going to do that today but totally forgot to get snap happy so this will hopefully happen on Wednesday when I’m back at the gym.

Food today was a Beef Pho Naked Noodle pot for lunch at 267 calories, a Pink Lady apple for a snack and a chicken curry for dinner that came in at a walloping 947 calories. I didn’t realise just how calorie dense that meal was but one thing I’ve not wanted to do with this calorie counting/better eating plan is to make my hubby suffer through eating foods that he doesn’t enjoy. The way I’m looking at it is that we all enjoy a curry in our house and even though I could have saved a ton of calories by not eating this, I’ve counted each calorie that it contains and worked it into my daily allowance. I’m full, satisfied and feeling good today.

I just hope that eating things like this doesn’t end up kicking me in the arse when it comes to my weigh in next week! I’ve always been on the larger side and have struggled to lose weight in the past, some people have said that could be affected by my Hypothyroidism but a doctor has never confirmed that for me so right now I’m blaming poor portion control, too many take outs and snacks. Hopefully monitoring what I eat will help me get myself to where I need and want myself to be. I guess we will see on Monday…

Until next time folks…

Deb x

Square One

So a bit of history is probably the way to start this blog off. This could go on for a while so I’ll aim to keep it short and sweet.

My hubby and I met when I started temping at the company that he worked for. We started chatting, moved on to dating, bought a house together, got hitched in Vegas …

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Hitched in 2011 wearing a three piece suit and fully fitted dress in 40 degree heat. Awesome day and holiday!

and started to try for a baby.

Sadly the trying for a baby thing wasn’t as easy as we hoped it would be, my periods were all over the place, I wasn’t ovulating and it just wasn’t happening for us so we went to the doctor to see what was what. After a few tests I was diagnosed with “unexplained infertility” and sent to see a fertility specialist at the hospital. More tests were performed and the specialist I saw decided that I’d need Clomid and Provera to start our medically assisted baby making journey. I was prescribed a years worth of medication but when I went to the pharmacy to get my pills they refused to give them to me because of the length of the prescription.

We then headed back to our GP who assessed the matter, gave me a revised prescription for three months and told me to book another appointment for a couple of months down the line.┬áThe first month passed and I began to ovulate but we didn’t manage to conceive, the second month came and again, I ovulated but didn’t conceive. Now it was time to head back to the GP. He told me that as we hadn’t conceived that we were being referred to the IVF clinic and that I wasn’t to bother taking the last months worth of Clomid. My hubby and mum both told me to take the meds that I had left, so like the good wife and daughter (and bad patient) that I am, I took the tablets that I had left and attended my appointment with the IVF team.

At the appointment we were told that my hubby would need to provide a semen sample for analysis and that I’d need a HSG before we could progress so everything was booked in and the wait began. The day of the HSG test came and before the test could be run a pregnancy test would need to be done to make sure that I wasn’t pregnant as this test would not be administered if I was. Imagine our shock when the test came back positive! The last months worth of Clomid, some charting, OPK’s, Preseed and good ol’ nookie created our amazing, perfect little girl. She’s my everything and I love her more than I can explain.

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My squidgy dumpling getting her first ever cuddle as a newborn!

So why do you want another child? I hear you ask – well I always pictured myself having two or three kiddies and my daughter has also said that she would love a sister … a brother is acceptable and she’d love him just as much but a sister is her preference.

Fast forward to now and I am not ovulating again, I went back to a GP who referred me straight up to the hospital. I finally had a HSG done and all was well and after further testing my diagnosis of “unexplained infertility” morphed into “low ovarian reserve”. The specialist told me that she would be willing to provide me with Clomid and Provera again but only when I got my BMI down to 30 or less. I’m currently at 37 and need to lose around 45lbs. I have now been discharged from her care until I can manage my weight.

I’ve joined a gym and now use Boditrax to monitor my body but so far any fat that I have lost has been gained back in muscle.

I’ve since been back to the GP who has given me strict instructions to only focus on cardio even when I’ve been told that I need to build muscle to then burn more fat and to skip carbs after 6pm. I don’t know how well I’ll do on the cutting out of the carbs but I’ll definitely be calorie counting and portion controlling in an attempt to lose the weight that I need to and more.

So that’s where I’m at right now, lets see where I end up!